Floating Away!

So things are starting to somewhat get back to normal. I have my nephew Xander with me for the week. We went to the zoo yesterday and had a really good time. Rachel and Taylor treated us to lunch at the Boathouse! It was fantastic. We were able to get a table by the water so the kids could feed the ducks while we ate.

Low and behold though something had to happen. At 6:20 am I am pulled out of a deep sleep by the sound of my husbands voice saying OMG! I asked him what was wrong (normally his is very quite and tries to not wake me while he is getting ready for work). I get up to look for myself and realize our entire kitchen and most of our living room is flooded.

We had a plumber come to our house on Monday to fix out toilet and hook our ice machine up. Well apparently he bumped something and after a few days the hot water line under our kitchen sink came apart. Needless to say it could have been running for hours. It was not like that when I went to bed at midnight.

We called the insurance company to report the claim. His initial estimate is already almost $4,000! We have been sucking water out of our carpets all day. Our laminate flooring is bowing and there is water standing in our air conditioning ducts. I seriously just sit back, look at the water and laugh. I keep telling myself that someone else probably has it worse than me.

We will be without water until sometime tomorrow because the plumbing company would like the original plumber that did the work to come out to fix the problem. I wonder how many excuses they will come up with to try to get out of paying this bill? Thank goodness for homeowners insurance.

Hello out there

It has been almost a week now since we buried my mom. It has really been one of the hardest weeks of my life. I have never felt the emptiness I feel now. I am so used to calling her at least once a day. Now no one answers. I miss her voice so much. I wonder who I will turn to now when I have something I need advice about. I am trying to get things back to normal, but somehow I know it will just never be the same. I hope to post a few pics of Nick soon to get off this subject. I just don't know when I will get around to doing it.
Thank you so much to all of you who have shown me support and love through this incredibly tough time. Without all of you this would have been unbearable.

Arrangements

Arrangements have been made for my mother.

The visitation will be at Buchanan's on Tuesday from 5-8.

The funeral will be on Wednesday at 10:30

Thank you again for everything. Your support through this has been so much appreciated!

Rest In Peace Mamma

It has been a very long difficult weekend. I want to let my blogger friends and family know that my mom passed away peacefully at 12:20 this morning. It was such a sad but beautiful thing to witness. I am glad that she no longer has to suffer. She has battled this disease for two years with the thoughts of winning. Someone however had other plans for her. She is resting peacefully now in the hands of her father. I will let everyone know what arrangements are as soon as we make them. Thanks to all of you who have sent prayers and thoughts our way. You don't know how much they have been appreciated.

Wow! I can't even imagine that I deserve another award. I am honored and blessed by the things Jess http://allthelittleflowers.blogspot.com/ had to say about me. (Wish I knew how to add a link). Jess is a really sweet person with a fantastic family that cares about everyone. She and her husband Bill really inspire me. The past year I have really struggled with who I am and how to personally find God. They have great blogs that I visit daily. I guess now it is time for me to pass the award on. There are many rules to follow:

1. Put the logo on your blog.
2. Add a link to the person who awarded you.
3. Nominate at least seven other blogs. (I'm breaking the rules here and just picking one)
4. Add links to those blogs on your blog.
5. Leave a message for your nominee on their blog

I, like Jess am going to break rule number 3 and only nominate one blog. I have been very consumed in personal matters, but try to take the time daily for myself to check out my favorite blogs. The reason I have nominated the following person is because no matter what kind of a day I am having, I know I can click on this blog and there will be something to laugh about. I nominate:

The Dorn Family at lifeisgood4.blogspot.com/. I have known the Dorns most of my life and know they are FANTASTIC people. They have a great family and their blog is definitely something to check out. Hope you enjoy the award and and pass it on to another deserving blogger.

Thanks Jess for such an honor

Update

Yesterday I took my final in my clinical calculations class. The moment I turned my test in, I felt a huge relief lift off of my shoulders. I felt like I did fantastic.

My teacher called today to inform me that I got an A on the final. I cannot believe it. Not only did I do well on my final, but I am able to spend as much time with my mom as I want. I am so happy for my class to be over.

I also want to let everyone know about my mom. She has been in a little bit of pain the past day or so. When Hospice came in today we asked for some pain meds to alleviate the pain. She is finally resting peacefully. I have not seen her this at peace for months. Although it tugs at my heart, it fills me with joy at the same time. I am so glad to know she is comfortable right now. I will try to keep you updated as things change over the next few days. Thanks again for all your support!

I cant sleep. I am filled with guilt that I had to come home to find time to study for my final. I feel like I am in the wrong place right now. I want to be with my mom, but I HAVE to pass my final. I know this is what she would want me to do , but I still feel so guilty. If only I lived closer.

I left my mom at 5 pm and have had nothing but anxiety since then. I want to be there. I want to help take care of her. Thank God I have such a great family to care for her when I can't be there. I don't know what would have happened without my aunt Kathy and Leslie there to help make things run so smoothly. (Thank You)

Hospice has been called in. They tell us we are down to weeks verses months. I am numb to all of this. I just really don't know what to think at this point. I miss my mom. I know she is still here, but in all reality she is not. I miss her laugh, because she can barely smile now, I miss her humor, because she can barely talk, and I miss her being her. She has changed drastically in the past few day and it scares me to think that things can go down hill so quickly.

I had a conversation with my mom on Friday that I will never forget. I was feeding her dinner and she looked at me and said "You are getting Stronger". I asked her what she meant by that and she replied, "You don't cry anymore". I completely stopped in my tracks. I told her that I am starting to accept things. I guess I feel more at ease because I know where she is going. I know she will be in good hands. I also told her that it is okay. I have been told that it is important for them to know that you feel that way. I don't want to lose my mom, but I also hate the quality of life she has now....Zero!

I don't know what I will do when I get that dreaded phone call....I can't even fathom that at this time. Right now I know I have to be there and do what I can to make her comfortable. How? How do you do this when you are not really even comfortable yourself? I struggle with where I should be. It is so hard.

My mom got my brother and I very special gifts. They are beautiful wooden carved angels that say...

" Angels are always near to those who are grieving to whisper to them that their loved ones are safe in the hands of God"

These are the words now that keep me going. This gift shows you just what kind of woman my mother is. She is so special. Even in a time when she cannot lift her head or hardly speak a word she finds the time to let my brother and I know just how special we are to her. She is amazing!