Mom Update

How do I begin? This post comes with a very heavy heart. I am overwhelmed with emotion, but feel that I should let everyone know what is going on with my mom.

We saw the doctor today and he informed us that her liver is very sick so to speak. Her bilirubin (liver function) is at a 3.5 and should be below 1.5. She has been unable to take chemo now for about 5 weeks so her tumor trackers have jumped tremendously as well. Her symptoms all show that she is in liver failure.

Her liver is just so damaged from the Cancer and the chemo it is just unable to preform its duties. She has a lot of fluid on her stomach because her liver is unable to get them. She can only eat bites at a time and she is extremely weak.

Dr. Wade told my mom that it was her choice if she would like to try chemo today in hopes that it may help a little. He informed her that it was probably a long shot though and could even speed up the process of liver failure. He let her know that she could go without chemo and not be sick or have all the other side effects that would go along with it and enjoy what time she had left. He also told her he felt that it was important for her to spend and enjoy time with her family this week. (We have a big family camping trip planned) In the end mom chose NOT to take the chemo.

It is so hard....I can't even explain what I am feeling right now. It seems like things went from good to bad in such a short time. There is still so much I want to do and share with my mom. There are also so many things I wish I could do over. This is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with in my life. Why? Why does this have to happen? I know it is selfish of me to want her to stay, but I can't help it. She is my mom, best friend and my hero. She is one of the great ones. After all is said and done....I hope to make her proud and can be half the person she is.

New Pics

Amber took pictures of My mom and her grand babies the other day and they are up on her website. Thank you so much Amber for a wonderful job as always! They all turned out great. Now picking which to order is the tricky part.

Check out the pics a www.photographicsgallery.net.

Chinese Food???

I can't believe I forgot to post this earlier...

My mother in law called a few weeks ago and asked Nick and I to go to lunch. We said yes and met her at Applebee's.

The waitress delivered Nick's plate and he looked and her and said... Pu Pu Platter.

He apparently picked up on this when we ate Chinese months ago. I laughed so hard I almost choked on my drink.

The other day Nick and I went into STL to pick up our shirts for the Susan G. Komen Race. While we were there we decided to take a little trip to Union Station. It was a beautiful day. We ate on the patio at Landry's so that Nick could watch the fish. Thank goodness we were the only people on the patio! Anyway, Nick proceeded to feed the fish all of the crackers that the waiter had so graciously delivered to him. (Probably to shut him up) He was not in a very good mood this day. After lunch we went down to the dock and bought some fish food and feed the fish a little something besides crackers. It ended up being a lot of fun. Next time I think I will make sure he has had his afternoon nap first!

Some crackers and ketchup. I sure wish they would just make ketchup a veggie.

The crazy fish that wanted Nicks crackers.

Wing Night

So after reading a few blogs, I decided that I needed to give Buffalo Wild Wings another try. I tried it once when I was pregnant and was not impressed. Well, tonight I suggested to my husband that we eat supper there. We honestly had a great meal. I LOVE the mild, teryaki, and sweet BBQ wings. I am kind of a wuss so I did not try too much of the hot stuff. (Maybe next time) Well Tracie and Amber I gave it another try and I have to say...I will go back! I am glad to don't give up on something right away, or I may have missed out on a good thing.

STL Area Flooding

Even though it is not expected to reach the Flood of 1993 stages, here are a few pictures of the Mississippi (yes I sang the song) River. Nick and I took a little tour to see just how high the river was.

Underoos

I am so proud of my son. He is not even 2 and he tells me almost every time he needs to go potty. He has been doing this ever since we bought him the seat that fits on the big potty. I thought that he would enjoy the musical potty seat, but boy was I wrong. He LOVES the big boy potty. I got a seat cover that looks like a basketball. I have a very hard time getting him off of it. I put a jar of MnM's by the sink, and when he goes potty he gets one. This has seemed to work wonders. I decided it was surely time to try out the old underoos and see how things would go. My husband thinks this is just not right and he is way to young. I on the other hand feel that if he is coming up to us and saying potty and following through, it is definitely time. What do you think?